8 Weeks 4 Days

2:35am I woke up to the bedroom light still being on and also feeling a little strange. My alarm was set to check my blood sugar at 3am, but I was awake and so decided to check my level. In a normal voice, not anything louder than usual, I stated the number to Joseph who was sleeping soundly. 46. He quickly rolled over (from practically snoring) and asked what I needed. I tossed two juices onto his pillow for him to open for me while I chugged my apple juice. When I started on my 3rd juice, he got out of bed to get me some food. I don't remember if he asked me or not, but he quickly came back into the room with strawberry jam on a piece of bread. 'Good idea!' Next thing I knew, he was handing me a second piece of yummy bread. I prayed that when I checked my level that I wouldn't be responding to this low like my recent lows...where after a boat load of carbs I stay level... I checked it and I was at 65! Joseph got back in bed and I laid down next to him. With the light still on, we went back to sleep with an alarm to check my level 10 minutes later. 145. Another 10 minutes alarm and I hit 180. Surprisingly, with an intake of 140 carbs, I topped no higher than 180... That was a massive low!

My foot hurt through the night. I had taken a tylenol when going to bed and within a few hours, Joseph gave me a norco because it was too soon to take another Tylenol. He put the heatpack on my foot which helped and then he rubbed my calf til I fell asleep and out of enough pain. I checked my levels at 5:15, 6:00, 6:45, 7:30 which I suspended my basal because of a major b.g. drop, 8:15, and 9:00. From that 2:30am bg of 180, by the time I had suspended my basal and then checked my level at 9am, I had dropped to 122. If i didn't suspend, I would have been a bit lower.... Glad I didn't raise my basals like my doctors wanted me to do 2 days ago!

When I got out of bed this morning, I considered walking on my foot today. I crawled everywhere yesterday and it's no fun... I started to put some pressure on my big toe as I slowly dropped my foot to the floor. Instantly, I had shooting pain go into my foot. I will NOT be walking on my foot today... But I gotta go to the chiropractor =(

Time to call goodwill and see if they can put some crutches on hold til Joseph can pick them up for me.
2:45pm. Low again at 69. Drank some juice and ate Chicken Pot Pie. 10 minutes later when I'm full, I check again. 53. Let's just chug the juice now and hope it doesn't make me sick from being so full!! Joseph is headed home early from work for a second time this week.
I changed my basals for the afternoon/ evening and stayed level at 180. Tomorrow will be the test to see if I can stay level at 108 and not go low again. I had to give in and walk on my foot. It was no bueno and as soon as I  got off my foot and got my butt back on the couch, my pain subsided.... Weird. I sure hope the MRI in Feb shows a whole heck of a lot of what's going on!

All in all. 189 days left to go!

8 Weeks 3 Days

After walking yesterday evening, I was in quite a bit of pain through the night. 2am I had taken half the norco and at 6 I took another half but neither one helped a whole lot. This morning, I am resolved to not use my foot at all! Getting breakfast and taking it to the couch was slow moving, as I pushed my plate and drink across the carpet, slowly, until I reached the end table =) Woke up at 220 so Joseph will come home on his break to change my set. My site is bad so that is the reason I'm high. Lame sauce. 

I've been sitting on the couch for the last few hours. My foot is throbbing a bit, but it wasn't to bad until I got into an upright position to make my lunch.... Standing is bad today. No bueno!
Better levels with my basal adjustments. Only one low so far at 6pm of 65! Don't feel anything but tired... which is either me being low... or just being tired everyday at 5:30!
Tsk Tsk. That 6pm low took 2 full glasses of juice to correct and at 8pm I'm at 66 again! SO.. Basal is too high for my 4pm on. I didn't eat dinner so I KNOW that it's my basal =) More changes!
Foot is stabbing me off and on randomly, but no pain pills today yet!!
I have been getting random twinges in my lower belly and it's making me excited to feel baby B move around.. I'm sure when he or she actually is big enough to move around, it won' be comfy movements I'll be feeling. I will be glad to have the movement though to know he or she is alive.. It's a little worrisome right now with only seeing the heartbeat once, two weeks ago.. Trusting his/her life to God is a daily exercise. Even though I have all this pain, I'm still extremely excited (on the inside) to be awaiting baby B's arrival!
Strawberry Jam on English Muffin with Blackberries =) mmmm. Sometimes treating lows is fun!
I'm just hoping I have no high rebound!
For hours this morning, literally, I researched baby names online. I came up with a grand total of 5 boy names that I  like. I think only 2 of them I realllly like though. Since Joseph has been home, every once in a while, I randomly shout a name out. My method of eliminating one name at a time. If Joseph or I get tired of hearing the particular name, then we cross it off the list. If we don't get tired of it then it gets to stay on the list!
We already have our girl name so we are only trying out boy names!

10pm: took a Tylenol. Praying for a night of deep sleep!

8 Weeks 2 Days

I took a Tylenol at bedtime and can you believe I slept solid til Joseph woke me at 6 ?!?! I took another Tylenol then, and half crawling thru my house, putting minimal pressure on my foot, and 6 hours later, I'm doing very well! My ankle is VERY stiff though and if I end up bumping it on anything, I will be in major pain! I plan to be very careful! I'm sure if anyone were to watch me get around my house, they would laugh. I hop on the linoleum to a chair and then push myself backward on the chair to where I want to go then I crawl on the carpet to the couch, and then jump over the couch with my good foot to land on the cushion, crawl across to the end table, over the couch arm and bounce into my seat =) It's like a jungle gym! Too much hopping and boucing though will evenntually hurt my back! Go figure! haha

After breakfast today, I've felt no bueno so I made me some "Bad Girl" drink (mexican hot chocolate is rule #1 no-no for a preg. diabetic). Sipping on it slowly over an hour or so helps combat the yuckyness I feel!
2pm. Just like yesterday, I'm having a 'major' low. Down to 50 and having a little hard time coming up. Glad I didn't raise my basal like my Dr suggested yesterday =) I actually lowered the basal.
SO. Drs want before and after each meal. and that's it...... I didn't give them the low levels between meals and all the extra numbers I have and of course, their suggestions were WRONG! I just told them that I didn't agree with their suggestions and if I am running on the 'higher' side, then by friday, I'll make their suggested changes... Well.. today I'm low. Looks like I won't be making their changes.
Joseph is coming home early from work to be with me just in case. So far I've had 6 glucose tabs and 2 juices (that didn't settle well) and I'm still below 60. Whoop-de-do!
Joseph and I celebrated our 3rd anniversary so the walking that I did was more than originally planned. 10pm and my foot is starting to throb and stab me. I've been on it in the last few hours though. Walking into/out of restaurant/theater and grocery shopping....
My lower back isn't giving me problems, but I can feel something out of whack in my LOWER back/hip level..... Feels like the pelvic joint issue I had with my last pregnancy.
So! We shall see how tomorrow goes!
Good BG's today. A high after dinner of 170. Not bad for guessing the amount of carbs =)

8 Weeks 1 Day

I battled a mighty headache through the night. No Tylenol helped that pain so Joseph continually reheated the heat pack for me. I took half a norco (5mg) at 6am when Joseph left for work. 8:15 I woke to my foot starting to throb and stab me. I decided I'll try to put no pressure on it today, no walking on it at all, and see if it helps. So far, I've been crawling all over, hopping on my left foot, and having Blake grab the things I need (diapers & wipes). My foot is hurting some, but it is not bad at all.. Maybe a level 5 or 6. It's very difficult to not walk on my foot but I hope it will help! My MRI will be in Feb, so I have a full month to wait =(
By 2pm, I got a Norco on board and walked a little through the kitchen and my foot felt funky, like tight as if it was days rather than hours I hadn't walked on it. I didn't think the no pressure did much but a few minutes after being on the couch, I think it did help. My foot quickly started throbbing and thankfully the Norco kicked in quick!!
My in-laws came for a visit and decided to surprise me by bringing dinner! How wonderful!, since I'm not planning on making dinner today because of the pain recently! My parents will be here in the afternoon to pick  up Blake and take him for a few days to see if a break from "Moma duties" will help my pain level.
Two days ago, I was tired of all my 'highs' and because I couldn't see any patterns, I randomly made insulin changes. Wellllll. Now I'm dropping a little too low =) I sent in my levels to my dr and I will let her make the necessary changes if she can make sense of my funky levels!

8 Weeks

Combatting pain with ice, heat, and Norco. I had another long night. As soon as the Norco wore off, my pain was back, nearly as bad as it had been before taking the pill. Joseph gave me more Norco around 5am. Because I was awake early I was quickly becoming nauseated. When the 10mg Norco kicked in and made me dizzy, that made my nausea even worse. 8am I woke up with a bg of 355. Somehow my pump was disconnected all night. ugh.. Within 10 minutes I was in EXtreme pain. Joseph suggested urgent care and I told him he could take me to the E.R. I limped to the bathroom, then hopped to the bedroom, moaned as I put on my clothes and then crawled into the living room while Joseph got Blake ready to go and gathered our things. I was changing between sobbing and holding my breath while Joseph got Blake into the truck. He came back and carried me. Of course we had to hit every light and slow person in vaca. I rubbed my leg and it wasn't really helping. Joseph parked the truck and started to gather the stuff. I got out and hobbled toward the entrance. I got 3 cars down before bending over and sobbing. I heard someone shout at me, asking if I needed help or a wheelchair but I was totally unable to respond. Before I knew it, Joseph picked me up and carried me while Blake followed us with Joseph encouraging him to quickly cross the street. He sat me in a wheelchair and I think I was bawling the whole time we were in the waiting room. Joseph checked me in and came back to help rub my leg. Blake stood by me without either of us needing to tell him to stay close. In the room they quickly got a doctor to me and gave me Dilaudid and Zofran. One shot in each shoulder into the muscle. After a half hour, the meds kicked in enough to take all the pain from my back, upper leg, and most of my calf. But, my foot was still sending random stabs of pain. Joseph rubbed my leg and Blake played trucks on the extra chairs in the room. He was watching Daddy and came over to help massage Moma's leg.

A whole of two hours from when we left the house, we were headed back home.
Joseph stopped by the apartment office so I could go ask the manager if there was anyway we could get a dishwasher in our apartment. I talked with the manager for about 10 minutes and all of a sudden, I got dizzy and not feeling well. I quickly left her and got in the truck telling Joseph I was about to throw up! I held back my gags and Joseph parked crooked and ran to open the house and clear out the bathroom for me. I ran (as much as I could) and sat on Blake's little toilet in front of The toilet. All of a sudden, I was feeling totally normal and fine as if nothing happened!! I think the mix of the meds making me dizzy and the smell of the office got to me in a bad way! Thankfully I've felt fine since! This is the first "morning sickness" I have experienced.
Joseph and I were talking about my pain on the way home and this pain I've been experiencing is already worse than what I experienced with my last pregnancy.

7 Weeks 6 Days

The only difference between yesterday and the last couple of days is that I stood, washing dishes and making dinner for about an hour... I paid for it. Tylenol did nothing for my pain all night. I was awake quite a bit and if I wasn't awake from pain, I was awake from lows. Lows of 75 or so but I had symptoms so I treated. Even after treating, I was still at 75 =(.  I had taken Tylenol around 1am and a Norco around 4am. This morning, we left for church at 8:45 and it was too soon to take any more meds so I left them at home. We went out for breakfast and attended the 10am service at church. There was no room in the sanctuary so we occupied the empty 'cry room'/ 'nursing room'. I rocked and tried to rub my bare foot numb on the rough carpet/ chair in front of me. The pain got worse and worse. Of course I couldn't take my meds because they were at home, but I doubt I would have taken them even if I had them. I sat there, watching the service on the large tv and moaned and groaned and rubbed my foot and leg. Joseph wanted to go home early but I wanted to finish the sermon. Immediately after the last point was given, Joseph went out to pull the truck up to the entrance. He escorted me out, heavily leaning on his arm. I was limping and walking very slowly. My foot hasn't hurt THIS bad since Christmas, and this day is much worse. It is very difficult climbing into an suv when you've only got one foot to hop on... I got in and held back my throbbing tears. I called the advise nurse at UCD. I wanted to know why I couldn't take any anti-unflammatory pills and how often I can take the Norco. Turns out, anti-inflammatory pills cause heart defects... there is NO WAY I am going to take that risk. The Norco I can/should continue to take as regularly as before being pregnant. The only risk is that the baby will be born addicted to it, "but after the baby goes through the withdrawl, they are just fine with no lasting effects." Joseph helped me into the house. Once inside, I crawled and tried to stifle my shouts of pain as I made my way to the couch. Joseph laid out the icepacks for me and gave me 10/325 Oxy. For the next half hour, I screamed, cried, moaned and asked for God to take this pain from me. The pain engulfed my entire foot, all the way up my leg, into my hip, and thru my lower back. Blake came and put his bear and his hospital doggie on me and just stood there. Joseph rubbed my calf and the bottom of my foot. I screamed and bawled into the pillow and the couch. Clutching the cushion with all my strength in my hands. The pain in my hands helped to distract some but not enough. I was tempted to have Joseph drive me to the hospital to get better meds but decided to hold out a little bit longer. Joseph came and laid his head next to me knowing there was nothing he could do but sit back and watch me writhe.

My pill finally kicked in, my back and butt painfully numb from the icepacks, and my foot still tender on a heating pack.

Joseph is such a wonderful husband.
He is there especially when I am in great need. He is patient, understanding, and willing to help with whatever is needed. I have been so blessed to have him for all my life.

Now I get to do some research: Newborns addicted to Norco

7 Weeks 5 Days

Blood sugars are a little all over the place. Don't quite know what's up. I'm probably needing to change rates again. My foot and back pain have been increasing every day since right after Christmas. The Tylenol is not as effective anymore and I haven't wanted to take the Norco yet. Because of the pain, I haven't been sleeping well. I have to lay in a specific position with one leg bent just so and the other leg stretched out as much as I can, laying slightly turned to the side so that I get the right amount of stretch/pull in my back to relieve the nerve pain. Going to the chiropractor hasn't helped too much, but I take that as a good sign... Being that my back isn't out of whack, it's just painful! I keep getting random stabs of pain in the bottom of my foot. I haven't experience this location before so I'm very curious to find out what's going on. I have an MRI to see what's up in Feb. I've been dealing with some mild cramping and slight nausea in the middle of the night. Tiredness is kicking in. I've been going to bed between 8 & 9pm and taking naps in the daytime! I've been feeling a little yucky after eating, but it isn't anything that is affecting me much =)
This evening, I took a nap on the couch at 5pm and didn't wake until 11:30pm! Joseph let me sleep even though we planned to watch a movie. That was quite the nap!